Contemplations

Lost in a sea of thoughts... listening to Celtic music and plagued with the sight of double digit numbers almost every single time I inadvertently look at the time this past week or so. You know, 18:18, 12:12, 15:15 and the likes - never when I purposely aim to check the time, though. Today there was even a 13:13 but I bet now I'm talking about it means I've already paid too much attention to it and it will stop. I don't mind either way, I just found the occurrence funny.

I've been in a contemplative mood all day long, it seems. It's not such a recurrent state of mind for me for I'm mostly pensive and introspective in general, leaving me more prone to mood swings depending on where my thoughts are at when I have to interact with others. Yes, when I have to. I'm so... mercurial in essence. Today the contemplative state made me calmer, more laid-back and therefore 'nicer' a person to be around, although just as withdrawn from people I can't relate to as ever. It opened the doors to my imagination, too, and I found myself missing the writing of stories.

It's funny what the world can do to you. I am reminded of its complexities everyday and sometimes I find myself wishing I had a time machine to get back to the very beginning of human history just to see what the human world was like in its most basic state. And from there travel back forward in time to observe the subtle layers of complexities added along the way that go hand in hand with the acquirement of knowledge.

Leibniz's 'best of possible worlds' theory is based on the idea that the world in which we live is the best of all possible worlds, which makes for a somewhat fascinating theory to delve in and logically destroy - which is exactly what Voltaire did in Candide. Yet in today's world it seems a lot of people are actually convinced we do live in the best of possible worlds. Why? I'm not sure, I suppose a lot of factors lead people to follow that Leibniz-like line of thoughts. Confusing self-fulfilment in life with material gain is one reason, the fact that making yourself believe that 'things are the best they could be, really' can make you feel 'better' and less guilty about the fact that you play a direct part in the mess is another. Growing apathy in general...

So we live in a world where the majority of people actually believe that we live in the best of possible worlds and that today's outcome - or tomorrow's- could never be escaped because everything that we have done, are doing and will do is just the best we could possibly do because, hey we're human and flawed etc. Ironic that Leibniz' theory was debased and rejected especially since it takes root in theism, and yet in today's 'godless' society we still follow the same (lack of) logic.