"But my depression is my inability so far to process too deep a sense or feel of others’ pain and what I can see is going wrong around me. Unless I can find a way or ways to reconcile every discovery I make for myself with the ability to cope or shoulder the weight of such discoveries, I will not make it very far and will end up consumed by helplessness."

I wrote this in the very post I ever posted on this blog.
I cannot believe that I actually fell right into what I feared the most. It feels as though I knew from the start that I would be left reeling.