Midnight Thoughts

It’s all about the system now, and it’s increasingly difficult to cheat it. Everything about you is checked and double checked, and it’s only going to get worse. The chances of slipping through society’s net are getting slimmer by the day. Soon, there will be nowhere to hide. Everyone will be forced to abide by the same destructive rules under a totalitarian system we’ll just have to keep calling a democracy. It’s horrible. To think that soon no one will be able to bypass the system even though that system is wrong... To think that it will be impossible because every detail of one’s life will be under some form of control... To get anything you’ll need to prove so many things, and through such processes that you won’t even have the option to cheat to ‘get’ whatever proof is required.

It’s like the passport thing. Under the guise of ‘fighting terrorism’ they’re making damn sure they know who we are, all of us, without exception. We’re all being tagged, so to speak, and once that is done, every little detail about your person will be stored for the system to control.

When you no longer have a choice to disagree, and when you can no longer choose to walk away to live according to your own conscience, then there is no more freedom, not even of the mind.

I wish I had the words to sum up the way the world looks like at this very moment... It’s like... When thinking about the whole world, or the planet itself, it can seem overwhelmingly big, and as such it is big. However governments have changed things so much - or rather the uniformity process by which each nation started to look like all the others - that thinking about the world today feels like thinking about something quite small, and bland, and boring.

They call it globalization, but again, that’s double speak for making everything the same, and ultimately making everything more controllable.

In short, everything that we took for freedom or progress, or even good, was all an illusion to lead us straight to some living hell on Earth. And we can’t escape. We can’t escape because people have been poisoned and still are being poisoned every day by that sickness of the mind that makes them not only blind, but ready to fight to protect what is destroying them in the first place.

Don’t you ever wish it were possible to go back in time for a day to relive a past moment? Not with the aim to change anything, but to randomly relive the way it used to be and this time really pay attention. I wish sometimes I could go back to when I was very little, just to make myself remember in more detail.
When everything seemed so simple, almost. I always felt that there was something wrong and it took me years to get used to the idea that I was truly stuck here, in your repugnant reality.
I was too dreamy a child, my mind was always floating some place else, in a world of my own.

I feel like a sick dog about to be put down - that is truly how I feel.